a tired prayer

It has slowly been becoming clear that there are things that I need to work through; that there are roads that I need to travel, and ideas that I need to sort and work through. I have very little self confidence, I am easily frustrated and agitated at myself. When I look at my personality and when I look at myself in the mirror I typically do not like what I see. What is the root of all of this, and how do I address it?

What I want most in life is to be told by those that I cherish and need, that I too am cherished and needed by them. Haku, in the anime Naruto, says that the worst feeling on this earth is the feeling that you arent needed by anyone; I know that I am needed by my parents, and my family…but why am I not satisfied with that? Am I that selfish and conceited? That self-centered?

Jesus, Dad, Holy Spirit speak truth to my heart, remind me of who I am and what you see in me. Show me Jesus, if it be your will, that I am not ever alone. That I am loved by you and by so many more. I don’t feel like it now. Daddy I feel tired and unwanted, and alone. Just somebody Dad. Please. Love me tonight, wrap me in yourself, keep me safe and comfort me as I sleep. I pray dad, I pray. And I love you